Any Port in a Storm?

The day I was supposed to get my port coincided with an update from my neurologist, whose office was across the street from the hospital. After we saw him, my wife and I began the walk across the street.

There are a handful of days that stand out like movie scenes in this whole ordeal, and this is one of them. It was a bright, sunny summer day. Clear skies. Not too hot, not too humid. A great day to be out for a walk. I remember the wind in my wife's hair as we walked toward the hospital. I turned to her and said "I don't know about this," and we started to talk about the port, which was really more symbolic of our faith in the Wicked Witch than anything else. Neither of us felt good about her. We stopped right on the sidewalk.

I don't remember who brought it up, but we decided to back and talk to the doctor about our misgivings. We did, oulining our reservations, fear and complaints with Wicked Witch Enterprises. It wasn't a bitch session so much as an airing of grievances, ending with a formal request for another doctor.

He didn't really react. I found this to be common. Doctors will recommend one another, but they'll never speak bad of one another. It's like a code or something. I wasn't expecting him to go on a tirade, but at the same time, if someone's doing a bad job, shouldn't they get called out on it? The best you'll ever get is "well, some people have great results." I'm sure they said the same thing about Mengele. "Yeah, there's that whole testing-without-anaesthesia thing, but the guy's always on time and he makes a terrific three bean salad."

We did end up getting a referral, though, and I never did get the port. The new team was on the north side of town. My appointment was in a week.